There is something about the long, rambling, run-on paragraph and writing style of the OP that I find troubling. It is full of emotion, alleged facts that have no meaning, and an edginess that makes me wonder...
If he is trying to convince a group of rational, reasonable human beings to listen to his story and arguments, he should start with a rational, reasonable writing style, indisputable facts, coherent arguments and a professional tone. We as a group want responsible folks to have their second amendment rights protected. But the OP's initial salvo here does not warm me up at all to his plight.
I'm really sorry for what happened to the OP, but after reading his confusing string of consciousness I really wonder where the truth sits.
Best,
Rich
I've always felt it was a sign of intelligence to extract useful information from less than perfect data. But that's just me......