Being a gun owner in The Commonwealth is an experience like no other. Only in Massachusetts have I felt guilt around my lifelong appreciation for firearms and shooting sports. It is a strange feeling to me, but I cannot seem to shake this guilt.
Gun talk is socially unacceptable here (outside of immediate social circles & NES of course), if I make reference to a gun or some ridiculous law - it's dirty looks galore. "Why do you need a gun?" is said frequently. Here in MA the view is, only backwoods county hicks have guns and they're "all crazy", so if you are a gun owner, you are crazy - A=B, B=C, so A must =C. In public settings, even other gun owners will look at me funny for talking about guns. As if they know something I don’t. As if they are reading the minds of the others around me (read: anti's).
Guns and legal gun owners are demonized by police and legislature to a very personal degree. Every time I leave my house to go to the range I have minor anxiety, worried that if I am pulled over - which type of LEO will I get? How will he/she interpret the laws? I've read and re-read the laws and I am confused beyond belief, I can only imagine how diverse the LEO interpretations will be. All my gear is locked in the trunk, but can I stop for lunch, or gas, or to pick up a friend?
I have a restricted license, which adds much of the confusion above. Despite multiple attempts to prove my character and my respect/knowledge of firearms (20+ years of experience), the CoP(read: judge & jury) in my town refuses. I feel (however irrational it may be) that I have failed, as I am seen as not suitable enough for an unrestricted license.
This makes me feel guilt. Guilty of not being good enough, not having the right connections, not having done enough with my life that would give me power beyond that of "just a citizen". It's class envy, pure and simple. The have's vs the have not's.
I hate feeling guilty and I have never felt guilt, shame, or a need to explain myself in any other state I have lived (CT, SC, GA, FL). Sorry for the rant, but I had to get this out there and I hope that maybe others have felt this and can help me get rid of it (please don’t suggest moving, it’s been said enough and in the foreseeable future I'm stuck here).
Here is a song that accompanies my current feelings.
Gun talk is socially unacceptable here (outside of immediate social circles & NES of course), if I make reference to a gun or some ridiculous law - it's dirty looks galore. "Why do you need a gun?" is said frequently. Here in MA the view is, only backwoods county hicks have guns and they're "all crazy", so if you are a gun owner, you are crazy - A=B, B=C, so A must =C. In public settings, even other gun owners will look at me funny for talking about guns. As if they know something I don’t. As if they are reading the minds of the others around me (read: anti's).
Guns and legal gun owners are demonized by police and legislature to a very personal degree. Every time I leave my house to go to the range I have minor anxiety, worried that if I am pulled over - which type of LEO will I get? How will he/she interpret the laws? I've read and re-read the laws and I am confused beyond belief, I can only imagine how diverse the LEO interpretations will be. All my gear is locked in the trunk, but can I stop for lunch, or gas, or to pick up a friend?
I have a restricted license, which adds much of the confusion above. Despite multiple attempts to prove my character and my respect/knowledge of firearms (20+ years of experience), the CoP(read: judge & jury) in my town refuses. I feel (however irrational it may be) that I have failed, as I am seen as not suitable enough for an unrestricted license.
This makes me feel guilt. Guilty of not being good enough, not having the right connections, not having done enough with my life that would give me power beyond that of "just a citizen". It's class envy, pure and simple. The have's vs the have not's.
I hate feeling guilty and I have never felt guilt, shame, or a need to explain myself in any other state I have lived (CT, SC, GA, FL). Sorry for the rant, but I had to get this out there and I hope that maybe others have felt this and can help me get rid of it (please don’t suggest moving, it’s been said enough and in the foreseeable future I'm stuck here).
Here is a song that accompanies my current feelings.
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